( life has no lessons.)
You would think someone like me would learn from my family’s mistakes. Well that’s what everyone thinks about me.
"She’s the smart one in the family, so cool." that’s what people say, and people don’t know the hole story. Yeah the HOLE story.
I hate this town and my life sometimes. Nowhere to go, no one in my family wants to hang out with a 15 year old. they can all just grow up. They just leave me feeling empty. like no one wants me anymore. i know they love me, that doesnt me they want to be around me. I’m the odd child of the family. Half of my head shaved, and i’m more of a loaner(not by choice). just like a hole. i”m the hole in my family’s life. no one knows really what’s going on with me and they always ask “what’s wrong.”
well nothings wrong, i just want to go where you go, and do stuff that your doing. i dont want to be a hole in the picture. i’m not very photogenic.
i feel like when I’m with you i don’t exist. because of you i feel like i don’t exist ever. I want you to notice me. i ended it because i don’t believe in one way relationships. You weren’t even angry, and you didn’t even try to fight for me. you completely understand. you gave up, i want some one who wants me, not someone who wants me around but not in the way. i should be the world to you, because you were the world to me. but i left and you didn’t even look back. i wanted you too chase me if i ran, but you just sat there cool, calm and didn’t even blink.
well fine you got your wish, i’m gone for good now.
tis not the things you love the most that shall make you happy…..but tis the things you love the least
Samantha Lying. Oil on Linen, 32”x20”, 2011. By Ian Reynold.
Most people think that since I’m fifteen i don’t have opinions or problems,well i certainly do. The problem with adults (parents) is that once you form an opinion about something they freak out. I like this type of music or i like this color nail polish. it shouldn’t matter what you wear or what you look like. it should be about you and yourself. the way you present yourself to people is way more important now a days than what your personality. if you like black or pink wear it!!!!!! don’t be afraid of others opinions and how you look to them. if they want to bother you with criticism tell them that they need to look in the mirror and put a sock in it! you are YOU and no one else, so be yourself !!!!!